Enter the mind of the Ineffable Kumquat...

All things must come to an end

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 14:26:14 GMT

And this LJ is one of them.

I've changed a lot since joining LiveJournal, and this journal is no longer who I am. If anyone still cares, you can find me here now: kahteh

Egads, I live!

Mon, 08 Aug 2005 10:26:24 GMT

Argh. My computer is an archaic piece of crap without a decent internet connection, and my job means I'm too tired to ever go online.

Plus I don't have much of any interest to say, anyway. My time's divided approximately between Alex and my job at a theme-park, and with the exception of this week, I haven't been doing anything that exciting.

Well, this week's not exactly exciting. Alex and I have to look after a psychotic puppy and a smelly old dog (neither of which belong to me), which is... hard work, to say the least.

And I've been a lazy bum, so the comic's barely been updated at all since I went on holiday, which was over a month ago.

So... yeah. I'm alive. Maybe I'll start updating again.

I was thinking of getting a new LJ, though- this one's been going for a while...

Thu, 30 Jun 2005 16:37:15 GMT

I go to France tomorrow. Normally I'd be excited about going on holiday, but the thought of spending 2 and a bit weeks away from my boyfriend, with my family and my sister's fundamentalist Christian friend, doesn't really fill me with great joy.

Plus I have no energy at all, and don't feel like doing anything apart from going to sleep. :-(

Bleh.

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 22:29:20 GMT

I got back from university today. This year has gone faster than I could possibly have believed.

And so, at the end of my first year of uni, I'm going to look back and reflect.

What can I say? It's been an interesting year, to say the least. I've acquired friends, enemies, and a creepy stalker. I've discovered that Java is the most evil programming language ever invented; that the Welsh live up to their thieving stereotype; and that contrary to all logic, physics students are some of the coolest people I've ever met. I've discovered that I have a talent for karate. I've learned that it's possible to live on nothing but bacon sandwiches and instant ramen for a semester, without dying of scurvy or malnutrition. For the first time in my life, I've met other people who like anime as much as I do. And I've met the most wonderful guy in the world.

So... yeah. It's been a good year.

And now, an aside: for the first time in my life, I'm dreading the summer holidays, and especially my family holiday to France. I've been apart from Alex for less than a day, and I miss him already. :-(

Sat, 11 Jun 2005 21:52:34 GMT

Ugh, I'd forgotten how horrendously slow our home computer is, compared to mine at university. I keep thinking it's going to crash or freeze or something, but no, it's just pootling along at its own pace.

And Alex definitely gave me his cold. I am ~~annoyed~~ ~~unable to smell or taste anything~~ touched. I am also about to fall asleep. Home has a weird effect on me- I seem unable to stay awake after about midnight. Which is odd, considering I usually work/arse around until about 2 a.m. most mornings at uni...

Wed, 08 Jun 2005 22:41:16 GMT

Ohfuckohfuckohfuck.

I totally retract what I said before- now I'm worried about my computer science exam. I am so doomed... why am I majoring in a subject I patently can't do?

And it doesn't help that I've spent most of the evening chatting to Alex on MSN, rather than actually revising. To repeat: ohfuckohfuckohfuck.

OK. Calm. Deep breaths. The exam will be fine.

...why the hell am I wasting valuable revision time posting this? Damn, am I really that desperate to procrastinate? And I want coffee, but I'm scared to go in our kitchen because it's vile... :-(

And the fact that I now have Alex's cold is doing nothing to improve my mood.

Wed, 08 Jun 2005 12:04:11 GMT

Ugh.

Today I feel like crap. I think it's the combination of several days of very little food and not much sleep, catching the sun yesterday, and exam stress.

I nearly fell asleep in my German exam today. Luckily I didn't actually fall asleep, and who knows? I may even have passed.

And I've gone all sappy recently. Ick.

Mon, 06 Jun 2005 09:59:46 GMT

Nothing much to say, except that it looks like my guy problems are finally over. ^_^

I'll leave it at that for now- the only person on my friendslist who knows what I'm talking about can find out for himself, if he hasn't guessed already. :-p

Why am I making cryptic LJ posts? I don't know. I'm short on sleep and full of caffeine, and in a generally wierd mood today. Hooray.

Thu, 02 Jun 2005 13:23:53 GMT

OMG yellow belt! Only another... *counts* ...seven to go, before I get my black belt. And I will reach 1st dan level before I graduate.

I think Dragonball Z is taking over my life again. I had an epic 5-hour Budokai 3 session yesterday, before my grading (according to my friend Ric, it was to get me in the right mood for karate), and found myself wanting to shout "kamehameha" as my kiai. (Shouty-noise-for-releasing-ki, for anyone wondering.) It has about 3 too many syllables, and my inner fangirl is saddened.

Thinking of fanpeople, one of my friends has taken to pronouncing "vegetable" as "Vegeta-ble", which amuses me more than it should.

Oh yes, and totally unrelated to anything to do with martial arts, whether real or anime...

THE WEBCOMIC NOW HAS AN ART GALLERY! Go now, for ~~great justice~~ crappy pictures by me, and guest art by Shoomy and some random guy that Elliot knows.

EDIT
Random and frightening fact: "kamehameha" is recognised by the LJ spellchecker. o.0;;

Tue, 31 May 2005 14:07:17 GMT

At the moment, my life is a string of catastrophes and bad things, one after another.

Let's see... I had an exam today (which I guess doesn't really count as a bad thing per se, since it wasn't that hard, but even so I feel complete drained now); my karate grading is tomorrow, and every time I do my kata it gets worse; my friends all hate either each other or me; and everything's just generally crappy at the moment.

Unrelated note 1: How much should I read into a guy telling me not to say "aww" to him, because it makes him blush?

Unrelated note 2: I have Dragonball Z Bukdokai 3! Yay! (Only trouble is, I don't have a PS2, so I have to go over to my friend's place and steal his.)

I don't much want to go to the pub later, but Alex invited me and I can't really say no... :-(

Thu, 26 May 2005 15:25:25 GMT

Well, I've just got back from my Java practical, and it actually wasn't as nightmarish as I'd expected. Except that THE FUCKING THING WOULDN'T COMPILE. (Capslocks of RAGE!)

So I actually have no idea whether it worked or not. Grr.

Anyway, I'm now physically and emotionally shattered, and am going to spend the rest of the day eating chocolate, drawing random ~~yaoi~~ pictures of Miguel and Gemellos, and trying to convince myself that I haven't failed computer science.

Thu, 26 May 2005 11:48:46 GMT

Holy crap, my Java practical is in an hour and a quarter.

But I will be fine. I may have to make it up as I go along, but I will be fine nonetheless.

Self-deluding? Me?

Also, a note to someone who doesn't read my LJ but I don't care:

Nick,
Fuck off. I have enough to worry about right now without having to put off meeting you. I wish I could say this to your face, but I'm a coward.

Wed, 25 May 2005 23:42:05 GMT

My brain does strange things when I should be revising. Let's see... I've played Zero Wing, drawn two random Department of Evil pictures (one cute one of Miguel and Gemellos, and one of Miguel smashing a blender... this is explained in a comic that's coming soon), drank 4 cups of coffee (wheeeee!), and made a Department of Evil colourbar:

The Department of Evil is Random Demonic Love

And now maybe I should perhaps do some revision for my Java practical exam that's tomorrow...

Sat, 21 May 2005 12:16:16 GMT

Our comic has fans! I'm so happy!

...although I'm slightly disturbed by the Rubber Duckie Fanclub. Clearly they don't realise that rubber duckies are plotting to destroy us all.

And now, a random stupid crappy MS Paint oekaki:

I want a Wacom tablet. :-(

Thu, 19 May 2005 12:45:18 GMT

Guess what? I still hate Java.

I can't remember how to do Javadoc comments, so I'm making it up as I go along. w00t.

...I'm so going to fail this project. :-(

Now... happy news. We have guestbook! Go read my webcomic, and tell me what you think. *awaits the influx of "OMG ur art suxxx!" comments*

Oh, and here's an evil cookie for you all:

Tue, 17 May 2005 11:39:09 GMT

Sometimes I get the distinct feeling that people deliberately don't tell me stuff. >:-[

I found out today that I was supposed to have had a German exam four weeks ago, but I never got an email telling me about it and so didn't go. Luckily I have a high enough mark from my essays that I'm still going to pass without taking the exam, but even so...

Also, I'm annoyed because I have nobody to talk to. Am I really that boring?

Mon, 16 May 2005 21:52:57 GMT

Three posts in one day... I have reached an all-time low of sadness. XD

Anyways, since I was planning to do this even before idola did...

Since my best friend of 15 years announced she was coming up to stay with me, I've realised just how much I miss my friends from school. OK, so we had nothing in common, but even so...

I miss my school-friends' special brand of random insanity. I miss Mababadonluvacrutch (and dammit, Emily promised she'd tell us what it meant at the end of Sixth Form!), and Bo and Angel the Fake Lesbians, and "we named the monkey Jaaaaaaaaaaaaaack", and Marie and Charlotte's Pirates of the Caribbean quotes for every occasion, and the random crossdressing and little curly moustaches, and Chair Jenga, and Emily's hideous eye-wateringly bright knee-high stripy socks, and 5foot2.com, and "anyway... anyway... ANYWAY...", and Snailsbury Tales and Clifford the Big Red Dog, and Haaaaaalf A Bacon Sandwich, and Joel Walters' superiority complex...

...it's all kinda ironic, since Sixth Form was possibly the least enjoyable two years of my life, and I wouldn't go back if you paid me. But still, I miss my friends. :-(

Mon, 16 May 2005 17:35:29 GMT

I am bitchoftheday's Bitch Of The Day! ^_^

http://www.livejournal.com/users/bitchoftheday/1087.html

(In case you were wondering, this is where I supposedly claim to be a panda. ^_~ )

EDIT:

Thank you very much, elena_takami! ^_^

Mon, 16 May 2005 17:12:23 GMT

Today I feel listless and depressed. Bleh.

On the other hand, I've realised I don't have quite as much work to do this week as I thought I had, which is nice...

And one of my friends from school is coming over on Wednesday. God, I can't believe it's been almost a year since we were at school together...

Fangirlism... oh dear...

Wed, 11 May 2005 01:55:07 GMT

It is 2:45 AM. Following a marathon Fullmetal-Alchemist-watching session, I have spent the last 20 minutes drawing Kimbley's transmutation circle tattoos onto my hands.

Fear my fangirliness. XD

Left and right hands

KABOOM! (I'm proud of this one. It's amazing what you can do with a pretty crappy camera and strategic lighting. XD )

I know the circles look like they're on the opposite hands on the two bigger pictures- my camera flips pictures when you have the lens aimed at yourself. And I'm too lazy to flip them back...

A mystery

Thu, 05 May 2005 14:58:42 GMT

Why is it that almost all the guys I know are either weird, creepy, utter bastards or some combination of the three?

Thu, 05 May 2005 14:03:51 GMT

Hate Java. Hatehatehatehatehate.

I'm tired and bewildered (I woke up at 12:30, convinced it was Friday and I'd missed my lectures), I haven't eaten since yesterday lunchtime, and I'm too annoyed with my Java program that isn't working to hate my friends. Which is annoying, because I was in a really bad mood with one of them yesterday, and now I just feel like sleeping rather than punching him. Damn.

This is incoherent, but I don't care. I'm gonna go back to cursing at my program now.

Wed, 04 May 2005 22:47:15 GMT

I'm taking part in the annual karate Roses competition- go me! (Roses: Lancaster University vs York University.)

I didn't *want* to take part, but they had a shortage of female competitors from Lancaster, so even though I'm only a red belt, I have to compete. So I'll be spending the whole weekend in York. Good thing I don't have any coursework due in next week...

On the other hand, it should be good fun.

Thu, 28 Apr 2005 23:50:11 GMT

Caffeine is bad for you, mmmkay?

I have no idea why I did that. It just seemed perversely cute. Apologies for the crappy picture... the only camera I have is built into my phone.

Sun, 24 Apr 2005 19:24:21 GMT

I am getting seriously annoyed with a guy I know, by the name of Nick. I slept with him a couple of times in my first semester at university (and we're talking half a year ago, now) and he keeps texting me and trying to invite himself over.

And even though I hate myself for it, I can't bring myself to tell him that I'm no longer interested in or attracted to him- I just keep endlessly fobbing him off with excuses about not feeling in the mood, or being busy, or going out with friends...

And now, finally, I am sick of it. I don't know how to say it to him, but I'd be happy if he never contacted me again.